Listening to: Dying
My last journal talked about how my endless months of constantly doing work, even on holidays, was finally ended for a while.. but instead of being happy and free to do what I wanted (like hang out with friends for once, or do some streams earlier in the day), I was greeted with a sudden illness...
Well now im gonna tell you what Im sick with..
I went to see my doctor a few days ago, and I was diagnosed with a severe bronchitis caused by a serious sinus infection.
I havnt slept remotely well in over 4 almost 5 days... the first few days were the worst, cause my massive sinus-blockage induced migraine and my throat-destroying cough literally kept me up ALL night. And if thats not painful enough, I have to deal with the inability to swallow effectively, breath properly without coughing a lung up, and passing out from lack of energy due to either lack of oxygen caused by blocked airways or lack of eating.
Not to mention I have some sort of chronic tendonitis rheumatism "thing" all over my body, so my joints are progressively growing weaker and its reached the point where they actually lock up on me and can dislocate from doing the simplest of actions.
My back and my legs are constantly sore these days,, probably from bad posture and from the fact that ive been working relentlessly every day for over 10... maybe 15 months, sitting in a chair for for 6-8+ hours.
I have some sort of computer-screen induced migraine too, cause from, i would assume, and over-strained retina and optic nerve.... its quite unavoidable since Im CONSTANTLY working on the computer these days,. and even still Im trying to get a job either mixing music (Im working on like 6 or 7 EDM albums at once here), or doing art, or doing literature (You guys should see the ideas for prose I have on this laptop), And if its not that, im streaming games on the xbox or on my computer, so I can get money. Or im studying and doing course assignments on my computer..
Im probably dying of heart disease... too. I havnt done physical exercise in... god knows how long... at least 7 or 9 years. Grade 10 Gymn doesnt count cause I half-assed it and it was only an hour a day, wouldve have corrected the multiple years worth of damage to my respiratory, nervous, muscular, and circulatory systems...