Reading: CrapCode Ep1: Flame War
Watching: The X Files, or should I say "The X Fails"
Playing: Want to play Blockland
... Fucking hell im tired of this shit. Havnt posted anything in such a long time across my platforms, DA, FA, IB. Still TRYING to find the time to write Project Starconium, still doing concept art and soundtrack for stuff, still doing music, still working super fucking hard to get my job. Been volunteering my ass off literally everywhere, but for some dumb reason, no matter how long and extensive my resumer is, people wont hire me and theyd rather hire these fat old fucks who cant get shit done. Its like seriously, Ive done two weeks worth of work at my job in under an hour, meanwhile lazy ass shits who literally take breaks when they feel like it for an hour and call in sick because they can, get the job anyway.
Doesnt help that now that im officially out of school... after all these years, i pretty much have no reason to get out of bed... i mean that lierally. Ive been finding myself going to bed at like 4 or 5 in the morning, since i have nothing to do the next morning, except the occaisonnal work. But even then, ill still go to bed late, because I atleast working gets me away from some stupid stupid STUPID people who cant fucking respect for shit.
People always talking down, talking like their better, even though i work like 10 times harder than anyone. One of my parents isnt even employed now, after 20 years, and the other cant even get a proper job and works only making like half what he could make. And if thats not bad enough, they make stupid excuses about why this is... always having an excuse to not work. Ive never missed a day of work, or taken a break because of stress or other things.... Mind you, I DO need to put time into other things... like art, and music... but dont tell that to these arrogant shits, they wont understand it.
Im trying to build more followers here on DA and FA through streaming my art and lo and behold no one in my extended familly understands what STREAMING is, so they think just because they dont understand it, it must be stupid, and they earn the right to criticize me and my work, saying its a waste of time and it will never get me a job. My brother on the other hand isnt as stupid as the rest of them.... he's still a retard... but... at least he speaks fluent english. These other dumbasses are so messed up Its a wonder to me they arent slurring their words every second. My brother is trying hard to be a professional youtuber and Twitch streamer... but, of course no one seems to understand and they put him down because they dont see how working to entertain people is a job.
Doesnt help the whole extended familly are muscicians.. fucking so much noise... and we'd rather care about the small little details in the homes in our familly chain than look to improve on our social skills and whatsoever... like, I cant stream and concentrate for shit when people are talking or playing the piano right next to me... and then people get pissed off at me for telling them they need to quiet down? They do the same thing when watching the TV or a movie, they just wont shut up and they have no courtesy for other people.
I just dont get it with these retards.... like... mind you... ive tried to take it into my hands several times. I actually managed to get into a fight with my dad last thanksgiving and, of course it was his fault, calling me out on how he thinks im lazy that im always on my computer doing art that doesnt matter, so of course he pissed me off... he managed to tackle me somehow, and I stabbed him with a pencil a few times in the leg. Too bad he didnt bleed that much, thatd be the first meaningful thing that would come out from him.
And of course I get the bad wrap, saying I have anger problems? I mean... ok ok, maybe Im a little tense and always on edge and defensive. But i would NEVER be like this if people werent so stupid and cruel to me... Afterall it was his stupid decision to get physical with me that got him stabbed.